So….in the middle of working today (I am the CEO of a cleaning company with my husband-btw) I happen to look up in the mirror….only to ask myself am I still desirable to the man I married? or will I be if we decide that this journey is still worth treading down the line….
In theory this is typically a woman’s job- but to average the African American- this is for the Latino, Spanish, maybe even Caucasians….but definitely NOT BLACK!
I wonder if the reason for our recent distance is my line of work. I take everything I do seriously-cleaning is no different. Here I am…with a medi-boot on from a twisted ankle and yet I still manage to go to my client’s house to clean. I can’t be the prissy, “omg I broke a nail!” kinda girl……
Or…maybe my line of work is changing me….maybe rolling up my sleeve and cleaning toilets and suffering from blisters every now and then has left me feeling so tough and in control that it leaves me to be undesirable at times…..
I do know this….I am ready to give this business over to my husband completely. I want to go to work. I want my peace again. I want to feel wanted….I don’t feel that lately. I love compliments, I love to be dined (not necessarily with food) but parks, hand holding, massages….it seems like these things are rarely dished out anymore…..
I guess I better polish up the resume, get me an office job…show off some legs and step in some pumps…LOL…..maybe then he’ll realize that I’m still a woman……………..